Just thinking about things...

OK, lets not all pass out! I am actually getting back in here again just one day after posting the last blog. I just might get the hang of this after all.
Seems to be a bit therapeutic to get to write down the things that are playing out in my mind and heart. I have so much going on right now in life that requires me to be in constant prayer, because it involves situations that I alone do not have enough wisdom to deal with. I really need the guidance of the Higher Power to even think about some of it.
Seems I have made way too many decisions in the past that I regret, and perhaps it is because I did not spend enough time really praying about them before making them. Not any more. I am too afraid to do much of anything anymore without completely dissecting every aspect of the situation and fleecing God for a divine answer. However, sometimes the answer must be made before I can get a complete "right feeling" about it and then it is the "what and see what happens" scenario.
How I wish things were not this complicated right now, but they are. And I really am not sure just what to do about a few things. Seems any direction has its pros and cons, and so now I must take some time to weigh out which would have the best outcome.
Why oh why must life be so complicated sometimes?
All I know is that I am truly thankful that the Lord is a constant friend and strength to me. I cannot imagine trying to get through this life without Him being here for me every moment of every day.

So many things are just so messed up right now, on too many levels to even try to explain. And, it would do no good to try anyhow because I am always very misunderstood anytime I ever try to explain my feelings. Again, just really glad that God does know, and He understands. Sometimes I just really need for people to, too!!!!!

Nearing the end of the school year!

Today as I sit here at my desk at work, I am thinking how quickly yet how slowly this school year has passed.  At times it seems things have moved right along, and other times I feel like time has just dragged by. Regardless, just 6 more working days until we are set free for that much needed and longed for Summer Break!!  It has been a pretty rough year, and seems that youth these days are just getting worse and worse in the disrespect area.  I firmly believe that scheduled breaks for teachers and staff who work in the public school system are a must in order to maintain some form of sanity, and to be able to regain mental composure. I know I sure need it after this year.
The rains that we have received have sure made everything green and glorious, with flowers and rose bushes producing the most beautiful blooms.  It is a bit unusual since we are more used to the droughts that cause things to be much more dim, so we welcome this wonderful change around us.  Not real happy with all the tornado weather and floodings that are happening, but we are thankful for the much needed rain around here.
With this being the end of the school year, it is also a lot of excitement going on for the Seniors, as they wind down their final year of High School.  It is hard to believe that we were experiencing all of this just 2 short years ago with Mandi, our youngest daughter.  Seems the older they get the faster time goes by.  Wonder why that is?  Memorial Day weekend is in a few days, and I usually plan a patio party and cookout for some of our family and friends. Well, presently our patio holds the contents that we had moved out of our storage back in April- and we have yet to get it all sorted and done away with. Just haven't had the time to tackle it, but maybe if we get a little bit of energy on Saturday we could clear enough space to enjoy some fellowship- otherwise we will just try and make other plans. Going to just wait and see what the weather has in store. Kind of wanting to wait until I am off work for the summer before starting any cleaning out projects. I just don't have enough energy these days to get stuff done like I used to. Have to kind of pace myself better and allow much more time. It gets me so aggravated when I can't function as I wish to, but oh how thankful I am that I at least am not an invalid and having to depend on others to take care of me. So I will take my having to slow down and take my time to get things done over not being able to do anything at all for myself.
God is so good to me, and I am thankful for my blessings.

WOW! It has been over a year since I posted in here last.  I guess I am just not great at "blogging" even though I really want to be.  Maybe just maybe I will get the hang of it soon.
Seems blogging would be a much better way to express my feelings and thoughts than on other social media places where you are criticized for "sharing too much" even though that is what the sites are for, are they not??
Eventually I would like to start a brand new blog- one that would highlight my crafting activities and such- and might actually be something I would keep up with better. Who knows. I am not even sure if anyone sees this blog and its post anyways. I could be only talking to myself- and in all actuality I might as well be.
Well, if you are happening to read this post, could you please do me a favor and let me know? Might be good to know on this end. :)
Until the next time I decide to check in here, I bid you farewell.